Everything I’ve ever loved has died,
or caught fire,
or both.
I cannot seem to keep things, or people;
always disappearing,
or being destroyed,
or running away.
I want love and only give destruction.
I want a good life yet have only been dealt in ruins.
My history;
a series of inverse cards on a table,
the taste of ashes in my mouth,
and the feel of blood in the hands.
Pain can always be found hidden within the pleasures,
and more oft than not,
I get great pleasure from the pain.
Some days I rule in Hell,
and some days I serve in Heaven,
but in neither duty am I ever completely satisfied.
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